A Month Ago

Status
On 8th of May Tuesday, between 1400 to 1430 hours two hours after class I got hit by a car on the corner of Horace Harding Expy west bound and Kissena Blvd intersection in front of the Dunkin Donuts/Baskin-Robins about a block away from QC. I still can remember the incident semi vividly as I crossing the street and is totally unreal like a movie. The cars going west bound on Horace Harding Expy is still green light and they are about 300 ft away on my right. In my mind at the time is “Hey. They are about 300 ft away and it is impossible they will hit me! It is not like they are F1 race cars with nitrous turbo or rockets charge and could reach where I am within 10 seconds flat”.

So. I decided to jaywalk and I was the first one to cross with several students behind me still on the corner waiting for the red light to cross. As I crossed the street almost reaching Dunkin Donuts’s corner about 10 ft away, “wham” a white two door sedan making a right on Kissena hit me and I fly back about four to five feet (I am so glad I always wear a backpack with a water bottle on the outer bag if I didn’t I would have crack my head. I don’t know why the driver (that retard old geezer) gas up while making a right and saw me and hit me. Since usually and norm, you don’t gas up when making turns when there is pedestrians crossing even I don’t do that unless there is no pedestrians period.

As I lied on the ground for maybe 5 to 10 seconds and I got up. The driver came out of his car and yell at me about I wasn’t on the pedestrians as his only defense (I can’t recall what he said exactly but something like that) I might be few feet away from the pedestrians lane but it make no difference and he is wrong. I cursed him out for few minutes and telling him about how he ruined my day. I think there is about 20 odd students as witness and were waiting for the bus. Somehow I was frustrated and can’t make a real judgment at the time and decided to let him go. Even he offered me to call the cop and I declined. BIG MISTAKES OF MY LIFE! At the time I was completely incoherently able to make decision for my self due to shock. I let him go and he received the get out of jail card of his life. After this ordeal I received left torn calf muscle and all four fracture right toes knuckle beside the thumb toe which wasn’t diagnosis properly at New York Hospital of Queens until a week later at the podiatrists’ clinic. At the time I had a swollen right foot for two weeks or so though out May.

I am currently still healing from the wound with a soft cloth cast and I was walking with a huge limp but now it is slightly better. I just hope I won’t have any problems by October since I am running the Army Ten-Miler on October 7th down in D.C with couple of my friends who is in the Army National Guard. Plus my feet, calves and lungs are aching with desires to go back to running 4 to 6 miles again. I just want to get back to running/jogging!!! Stupid fractures on the foot and I wish you heal back fast and properly. They might be ending up with arthritis and most likely they will.


AAR (After-Action Review)
The reason I made a hasty decision on that day due to
I got a 2nd group short-film project that is due on the 17th and I am under tremendous pressure unlike the rest of my team mates. If I did go to the hospital right at the moment after it happen our 2nd short-film project would probably never get completed or off the ground since we are short of hands and I am the cinemaphotographer for the group.

Out of the 5 people within the group, I am the only guy working with 4 female that included Shannon, Miranda, Natalie, and Rita. Shannon received mononucleosis and Rita who give birth to a girl few months before received lupus and was in ICU for couples of week and was MIA completely unable to contacts with out reply period. Plus it is impossible to follow theirs schedule and I wanted to do it during the Spring brake in late April but none of them willing to do anything about it since most of them are free anyhow. So everything was delay for several weeks mostly due to Shannon since she is part of the cast in this short film. The film came out semi half ass work due to time constrains and partially I have to blame my self let this happen and we only have three/four people for the cast includes me. Plus I am the mostly the only one that handle the camera works through out the shooting process and most of the film editing. Somehow, I still feel my group let me down without helping me on the entire final cut process on the film. I am not trying to brag about it but it is the fact that I did and spent a lot of time on this short film.

One of my friends called me an idiot, typical Asian and should file the police report and make the claims. Probably I would end up with couple grand or even more in my bank account from this lawsuit and my medical fee would be cover by the old geezer’s insurance company. Thanks to Health Plus my medical treatment is cover by the state of New York/fed government. But I do feel guilty about that. Since is better let the old geezer’s insurance company pays and his insurance fee would go up. Perhaps his license would get suspended.

If I were some of my friends with bad temper, they would probably end up punching the old geezer several times and go far as grabbing his neck and jam it between the car and its car door several times in front of his wife. Since his wife was on the passenger side when it happens and probably they were arguing or talking that result of hitting me. Perhaps is just a fantasy of mine since I would never or wanted to do such a thing to another human being plus I would get arrested. Maybe only exclusively to rapist, child molesters and mass killers which they truly deserved it by nature. It remind me of the ending scene of Korean movie Lady Vengeance directed by Chan Wook Park what the parents did to the child sadist also Hard Candy directed by David Slade by manipulated someone to kill them self. (Reminder - get both of them on DVDs in my DVDs collections when I get the extra cash)


Lessons I Learned From This Ordeal
Somehow writing this make me feel like a bitch complaining and whining about life. But it slightly makes me feel better. “You Learn” in life like the Alanis Morissette song. If I had a time machine I should have called my mom and asked her what to do on that moment instead of calling her 10 minutes later after it happens. Maybe because I feel completely unreal at the time and moment in life it just happens to me. The possibility and result could be endless. Oh well. Injustice and unfairness is everywhere and I slip my chance and sucked up the pain and drive on. FIDO! (Forget It & Drives On) I guess I am a fool and too nice to peruse this.

One true lesson I learned beside this ordeal is “You can’t relies on anybody (your fellow men or women) but your self maybe in the military your battle buddies where your life depends on it“ Also due to military hierarchy and I love that system and I won’t abuse it. Perhaps only your closest friends could be reliable sometimes and most of the times. Maybe I already know all of this already and all of us are selfish in many way. Could it perhaps maybe we are New Yorkers and also due to the media desensitized our feeling toward one another. If I were living in a small town it might be a different story etc. Life moves on… I just hate small cuts, wounds and pains since they hurt the deepest.