Friday, September 21, 2007
Funny Thursday...
I have no class on Friday due to Yom Kipppur. On Thursday night, Jesse and I went to Best of In The Flesh Erotic Reading Series at Happy Ending (302 Broome St). The erotic reading done by Rachel Kramer Bussel, Samara O'Shea and many others fill me with laughter. It was my first time attending a reading like this and I found it to be wonderful. On the negative side the whole entire place was fills with people. It was a positive and new experience and I am hoping to attend it again next month or by November.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
6 Years Later...
Tomorrow mark the 6th Anniversary of September 11 on the exact same Tuesday. It seem not long ago and it felt like it was just another scene from a disaster movie or a nightmare. James was on a short brake right after his basic training from the Army and I was a freshman at John Jay College of Criminal Justice at the third week of school.
Mom calls me that morning and while I was semi daze due to that I had afternoon class that day. While I was riding the 7 train I could see bunch of dust clouds covering where WTC used to stand. When I got to John Jay, I found out it was closed due to it until Monday. Everything seem to be unreal and weird afterward. Less than two years later James got deployed to Iraq with the 4th ID while I was still daze and confuse at John Jay. Even I was trying to do my best but not enough with all the BS I have to put up with. The feeling of anomie back then is numbing. Currently I am not anymore. I am proud to call my self an Army ex-cadet while I was in the Army ROTC at Fordham University and served with the Pershing Rifles where I contribute my time to this organization and continue the tradition.
As suppose to my 2005 graduation class with the ROTC. Most of these kids I know are either in Afghanistan, Iraq or station in some boondocks towns, or living their civilian life as Army National Guard/Reserve playing weekend warriors once a month. As for me, I am just playing catch up with my self and feeling some bitterness in my mouth. "Life is full of broken hearts and shatter dreams". All I am trying to do is glue it back together piece by piece and FIDO! As for my future is unsudden, Army may not accept me. My optimism have run dry, I just have to leave it to fate.
Mom calls me that morning and while I was semi daze due to that I had afternoon class that day. While I was riding the 7 train I could see bunch of dust clouds covering where WTC used to stand. When I got to John Jay, I found out it was closed due to it until Monday. Everything seem to be unreal and weird afterward. Less than two years later James got deployed to Iraq with the 4th ID while I was still daze and confuse at John Jay. Even I was trying to do my best but not enough with all the BS I have to put up with. The feeling of anomie back then is numbing. Currently I am not anymore. I am proud to call my self an Army ex-cadet while I was in the Army ROTC at Fordham University and served with the Pershing Rifles where I contribute my time to this organization and continue the tradition.
As suppose to my 2005 graduation class with the ROTC. Most of these kids I know are either in Afghanistan, Iraq or station in some boondocks towns, or living their civilian life as Army National Guard/Reserve playing weekend warriors once a month. As for me, I am just playing catch up with my self and feeling some bitterness in my mouth. "Life is full of broken hearts and shatter dreams". All I am trying to do is glue it back together piece by piece and FIDO! As for my future is unsudden, Army may not accept me. My optimism have run dry, I just have to leave it to fate.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Breeze
Classes started back on Monday 27th of August. While I sleep, I can feel the cool summer breeze blowing through my window. I feel peaceful and calm. The Zen in me just relaxes within my self.
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